Here I am again, blogging. I had a blog before, but deleted it in the best interest of my relationship I was in. Things have changed, I have things to say, don't know who to talk to, so here I am. Here we go...
So my ex, loved him to death. You could say out of the 4 relationships I was in, he was the one I felt that special connection with. He was my "first love" I guess you could say. Even though he was the 4th, he was first one I loved loved. I'm not sure what the whole love at first sight thing is supposed to feel like but, the feeling I had when I first saw him, pretty sure that was it. Things were so amazing when I was with him, and now that I don't have him in my life I think of all the ways I could re-do things if only I had the chance. I miss him. Is it crazy to still care for the guy soo much? I wish we could be friends. All the other exes I could care less if they were a part of my life. This guy, I don't think I could do without him. Two weeks later and he still crosses my mind pretty much everyday. Why Tiara, why did you have to screw up soo bad. I have things I wish I could say to him, maybe one day he'll let me talk to him and be friends with him. I only hope. I've talked to the only friend I can talk to about this, and I'm sure she's had enough, so here I am blogging to get everything I can, off my chest.
Aside from the above, my life...I suppose, it's alright! I graduated from SIAST, I have a job at sherbrooke as a CCA, I'm getting a tat on june 21, one of my best friends moved back home the other day, my sis gets married on july 16 and I have GREAT friends and family that have been here with me through it all. It's those friends who are there for you no matter the time, no matter the case, that count. I've really seen my true friends through all this. The only ones who ever know your hurting...is your true friends. I owe a big thanks to everyone who has been there to talk with me, hold me while I cry, hugged me, and just simple encouraged me to keep on trucking.
I know one day everything will fall into place. Until that day, I'm a single girl. I work hard for the things I have in life. I have my boys, my girls, my family that I share love with. Love of another kind. That part thats to be filled by your significant other, that part is empty in hopes to one day be full. I didn't write this in hopes that a bunch of people would read it and feel sorry for me. I wrote it to get things off my chest. God help me as I continue on my path of life. Until I take my last breath, life keeps going and ill be living it to the fullest.
Let your smile change the world, but even on your worst days, NEVER let the world change your smile.
My name is Tiara Jewel Bobowski. I am 21. And I AM worthy.
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